October 2000 archives

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Tuesday, October 10, 2000

behind the music

Music CDs that have promotional stuff or special multimedia that come up automatically when you put the CD in annoy me. I wish that there was some sort of way to stop whatever it is to come up when all I want to do is listen to the music when I'm working on something on my computer.

Oh, wait. There is. It's called listening to it when I'm working on something in Linux.

But that's overkill. I'd rather do my website building in HomeSite than xemacs. So I think I'll just gripe about it instead.

Sunday, October 8, 2000

living for God, part 2

Passage: "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full." John 10:10

It's about this time in a semester (especially during the fall) that I start to get really down in energy. Tests, papers, and projects always wear down on me. I start really looking forward to Thanksgiving.

Why am I not more thankful for today? For the life I have now, and for the opportunities that are in front of me? If Jesus really did call us to have life and have it to the full, to what extent have I not taken him up on his offer?

Shows like The Real World give us a "peek into lives of other people." Which, the executive producers assume, we'd rather do than live our lives ourselves. How long did it take me to realize that we're letting other people live for us?

In Romans 12:11, Paul encourages Christians to not lose their zeal for serving God. And according to 1 Corinthians 10:31 (a verse I've quoted before) says whatever we do, to do it for God's glory. Therefore, doesn't it make sense to say that if we're not living for God, we're not experiencing life to the fullest?

In Life's Little Instruction Book, instruction #322 is "Don't say you don't have enough time. You have exactly the same amount of hours in a day that were given to Helen Keller, Pasteur, Michaelangelo, Mother Teresa, Leonardo da Vinci, Thomas Jefferson, and Albert Einstein." An addendum to that: "Don't waste the time you've been given." I'm as guilty as anyone else of letting other people live life for me. It's time for that to stop.

The cable is getting cut off tomorrow. But more than that...I'm going to try to stop living each day as if it's a chore and live them like they should be lived. As I said before, I'll live for God, and I'll go through life with joy in my heart.

Friday, October 6, 2000

the power of the Pentium

You know, when you think about it, a lot of people have spent $1000 or more for a deck of cards.


Once again, today is my birthday.

23 years. You know, it doesn't seem like a very long time at all. And in another sense, it seems pretty long. I mean, I've only been working on this site now for somewhere around four years. I've been in college almost five and a half.

I'm usually pretty introspective on my birthday. I'm not sure why. It just always works that way. I guess part of me always is asking "what did I really do this year? What made this past year worthwhile? What did I learn?"

I mean, my sister and brother-in-law started a new life together, for the most part, anyway. Most of my college friends that I had when I was an undergrad have moved on and done the same. Moving on to new parts of your life seems to be the right thing to do as you grow older.

I haven't done that quite yet.

So as I type this, I'm thinking to myself, "What have I done?" But actually, this year, I think that I've accomplished a lot. I made it through the first year of the MBA program, which anyone will tell you is a feat in itself. I had a "real job" for the first time in my life this summer, and actually did all right at it. I didn't go under. I've lost 17 pounds and gotten in the best shape I've been in since high school.

I've also learned to be more open and outgoing around new people. (Thank you, MBA program.) I've learned to have some fun at my own expense and not take myself so seriously.

Maybe I've done more growing than I originally thought.

You don't usually grow very much physically after you're 21, so I doubt I'll ever be any taller. (I haven't grown much myself since I was about 15.) But I've got a lifetime to grow in other ways. Looking back, I think this year was a good growing experience, much like the other 22.

Many thanks to my family (love you mom and dad) and friends, without whom I wouldn't be who I am today. Many of you will never read this, more than likely. To those who do, thank you so much again.

Thursday, October 5, 2000

640K is all it takes...

I was reliving my carefree youth playing old Atari 2600 games on my computer the other night (it's not as good as having the old system with its one-button joysticks, but it's not bad) and the game decided to freeze up. This wouldn't necessarily be a bad thing, but in this case it ground my whole system to a halt. A Pentium II with 160MB of RAM ghosted because my DOS-based Atari emulator froze up. A quick reboot solved this, but still. Wouldn't you think a system like that should be able to recover from such a small program's demise?