thoughts
good enough
A lot of times in the past I have written things for this site. Then I have read over them, thinking to myself, "This really isn't good enough to publish." And with a swipe of the mouse and a tap of the delete key, no evidence remains of the thoughts just had.
Do other people do this with their web sites, I wonder. Or is this something that is somewhat exclusive?
It carries over into other things, too. One of the big reasons that I don't include a lot of my poems on this site is because I've usually thrown away most everything that I write on the premise that it "isn't good enough." I wonder who I'm trying to impress.
After all, what I write, whether it be for the site or otherwise, is the product of the moment at hand - which should be enough to make me want to publish it, or at least keep a copy of it for future reference. Instead, the trash can gets another addition, in paper or in bytes.
Sometimes I wonder about all that stuff that I threw away. Did I really just doubt myself, as I tend to do too often? Did I not give myself a chance? Or was most of it really deserving of its fate?
There's no way to know. And that's really too bad. Because if I'm really being too hard on myself in the present, I've deprived myself in the future of a lot of my past.